Undignified

Well, to share a small reality that happened, recently:

One of my favorite places to worship the Lord Jesus is at my balcony. The view is awesome, but more than that, I just worship the Maker, and speak of His great works when I see the little than man has done. (One thing I have noticed is that, whatever mortals have done has its own side-effects, and shows out sooner or later, but what God has done stays, and wears out only in the time that He has decided for it to deteriorate).

Anyway, what I'm arriving at is different. I was praying, and while I was ending my prayer, there was this urge to call my Father in Heaven- "Papa". I had heard my friends calling Him "Dada" and "Daddy", so my urge was urgent, at hand! I don't know why this, but, it felt really hard to summon all my courage to address my/ our Father in Heaven as 'Papa'. But, at last… at last, I did it, while nearing the last bits of my prayer; I addressed the 'Creator of this Universe', the 'Maker of everything', the 'Mastermind of all life', the 'Architect of our anatomy', the 'Planner of every move/ twist/ turn' of our lives, as "Papa".

What do you know? It was not the reaction that I had anticipated but, I cried, and cried. I felt so undignified and insignificant at the utterance of that word. I felt how small(er) I was, to call the great 'I Am' as my Dad. I felt so weak, knelt down almost falling on the floor, and sensed the disgrace of who I am… I felt Undignified! Just like Isaiah (of the Bible), I felt so little- so dead within me.

Learnt that, the liberty that we take to address our Father in Heaven as our own is an honor given to us. We were accommodated into His plan of redemption. Let us not take this distinction lightly, but instead, use it appropriately and in all the seriousness and sincerity of His grace, all throughout our life.
(feel like letting out a very long breath… )

May God bless all those who have ran their eyes through these words; May the Lord Almighty bless these words… Amen.